Time to unpause

This is the post I never thought I'd write. The one that I'd have screamed at you for even suggesting could have been a possibility 4 years ago. But here it is. I'm aware that many of you reading this will ...

Out of Sight, Out of Mind

Hello! Hello?.... Are you still there?... I'm still here! It's been almost a year since our last of 3 miscarriages, and we've inadvertently taken a sabbatical from fertility treatment. This wasn't planned. Had it have been, then perhaps I'd have relaxed, enjoyed it ...

Q&A

I've been thinking a lot about the questions I often get asked regarding fertility treatment. More specifically, about how I'm asked them - which is usually with a vast, Amazon-style overpackaging of politeness, delicacy and apologies. People have questions. Of course ...

The Familiarity Of Grief

In my experience, when you've suffered the pain of multiple losses, you get used to it. What I'm not sure is - does this mean you're broken? Beyond repair? Or does it just mean that you now know, in a very real ...

Hello, It’s Been a While

Gosh, I feel nervous writing this. That hasn't happened before. Sorry it's been so long. I have been meaning to get in touch before now, but every time I've thought about, I just haven't had the energy and wasn't sure ...

Christmas Greetings with a difference

I want to wish a lovely Christmas to all who have read this blog this year and continue to follow and support us in this journey. I have heard from many of you (and I love hearing from you) for whom ...

Aftermath

I actually thought my previous post would be my last word on our blog before Christmas. But this cycle did not end when I got confirmation of the miscarriage on Monday, and I wanted to talk about this a bit. Because ...

Miscarriage Confirmed

After another marathon bladder achievement (10 hrs, my own PB), this morning we got the result "pregnant 1-2 weeks". And while this is suggestive of the hormones slowly seeping out of my system, it was still positive. And so to ...

This is just getting ridiculous

I retook a pregnancy test today, hoping to see "not pregnant" so I could stop taking the drugs and let my body finish what it began on Sunday. And drink wine tonight. I've been in a lot of pain and lost a ...

A Man’s Guide To Miscarriage

Before I start, I want to acknowledge an assumption/bias that I'm not going to try to avoid when writing about something so personal. This is going to be extremely heteronormative, because while I abundantly understand that IVF is something gone ...