Hello, It’s Been a While

Gosh, I feel nervous writing this. That hasn't happened before. Sorry it's been so long. I have been meaning to get in touch before now, but every time I've thought about, I just haven't had the energy and wasn't sure ...

Christmas Greetings with a difference

I want to wish a lovely Christmas to all who have read this blog this year and continue to follow and support us in this journey. I have heard from many of you (and I love hearing from you) for whom ...

Aftermath

I actually thought my previous post would be my last word on our blog before Christmas. But this cycle did not end when I got confirmation of the miscarriage on Monday, and I wanted to talk about this a bit. Because ...

Miscarriage Confirmed

After another marathon bladder achievement (10 hrs, my own PB), this morning we got the result "pregnant 1-2 weeks". And while this is suggestive of the hormones slowly seeping out of my system, it was still positive. And so to ...

This is just getting ridiculous

I retook a pregnancy test today, hoping to see "not pregnant" so I could stop taking the drugs and let my body finish what it began on Sunday. And drink wine tonight. I've been in a lot of pain and lost a ...

A Man’s Guide To Miscarriage

Before I start, I want to acknowledge an assumption/bias that I'm not going to try to avoid when writing about something so personal. This is going to be extremely heteronormative, because while I abundantly understand that IVF is something gone ...

Miscarriage #3

Well here we are again. Each time different but somehow also the same. Different patterns of bleeding, different activities I'm doing when I start bleeding and know it's over. But the same sense of terror, panic and utter helplessness as ...

Bleeding again

I have started bleeding again. It began as light spotting this morning but seems to be increasing with cramping now. I think this is the end. Again.

Certainly Positive?

Once more, my mouse bladder deserves an award. 7 hours! I was so determined to avoid the ambiguous results we got last cycle. Regardless of the outcome of the next few weeks, that feeling of relief at 5am this morning ...

2 Week Wait From Hell

Gosh this is turning into quite the two week wait (2WW). Previous 2WWS have been a walk in the park by comparison. On Wednesday morning, 7 days after embryo transfer, I began bleeding. Not a lot of blood, but enough to be ...