2 Week Wait From Hell

Gosh this is turning into quite the two week wait (2WW). Previous 2WWS have been a walk in the park by comparison. On Wednesday morning, 7 days after embryo transfer, I began bleeding. Not a lot of blood, but enough to be ...

An early arrival…

Tomorrow is a week after embryo transfer. My pregnancy test date is next Thursday, 15th October. Today I began bleeding. It's rather light at present, but I know from past experience that this is probably the end of this cycle. I'm cramping ...

Embryo Transfer #4

At 9.30am we met the (now familiar) embryologist to discuss the state of our 4th embryo. The last two FET cycles have involved an afternoon embryo transfer, meaning our embryos have had a few hours to rehydrate and swell back up ...

A new beginning

I began injections on Tuesday. The trick I've discovered, for a pain-free injection, is finding an area of flesh that doesn't hurt too much when you gently push the needle against the skin. Before you even break the surface. And if, ...

Thoughts From The In Between

Every now and again I get some hope from somewhere. It floats past and I accidentally inhale it. But the high doesn't last, and ultimately I crash back to the reality of our situation. In July and August - just after ...

Moving on…or not?

I feel like I'm starting to mentally move on from this fertility journey. I've read blogs about the benefits of having an only child, and others about the adoption process. I'm pretty convinced these last two embryos won't work. I'm ...

A small reprieve

This miscarriage has gone on for much too long. Much longer than the first. The last time it happened I bled for just over a week and it was done. This time it has been almost 4 weeks, with a ...

Released from Anguish

Since our last miscarriage I have been relieved, happy, sad, grieving, angry, tired, hot, grateful, worried, anxious, joyful, restless, apprehensive, and a load of other emotions besides. At any given hour on any given day I may experience any or ...

Miscarriage #2

Our worst fear happened. As has so often been the case in this fertility journey. After a confirmation of the pregnancy on Monday last week, I was very anxious to get past Wednesday without any further drama. It was the equivalent ...

Mouse bladder goes the extra mile

Gosh, this last weekend was hard. Luckily it was full of love and laughter enough to distract me most of the time from the aching uncertainies following Friday's pregnancy test results. Saturday was spent at a dear friend's hen party where, ...