Laura

A difficult 24 hours

Goodness me its been a rough 24 hours. It started with the news yesterday morning that only 3 embryos were looking good. Then around lunchtime yesterday the discomfort in my abdomen, ever present since about 10 days before egg collection and made ...

Grading update

We got the call this morning about the grading of our 11 fertilised embryos. Straight off the bat, one didn't divide at all. So now we're down to 10. 1 is top quality. 2 are good. 7 are "not great". So they will grow them ...

Fertilisation Status

Overnight my eggs have been sitting in a nice warm bath of John's sperm. And we weren't even sharing the same bedroom (thanks Toby). I got a call from the clinic this morning to tell us 11 eggs fertilised overnight. 11. That's bonkers. We're ...

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It's here. Egg collection day. As this was where things went wrong last time we were very anxious this morning. After getting Toby packed off to a friend's house (thank you Katie!), we headed to the clinic and into our requested ...

70 little follicles, sitting in a clump

Drum roll please.... They're harvesting my eggs on Tuesday! My appointment at the fertility centre this morning started with a very uncomfortable scan, given how little room there is inside of me for my organs at this point, let alone a 6-inch ...

Ouch

I don't remember it being so uncomfortable last time. This round of IVF has been pretty smooth so far. The follicles have started growing on a lower dose of FSH than last time, which has meant it's so far been a ...

IVF round 2

We are now 12 days into our IVF round 2. As we are on slightly different drugs to suppress my own hormones this time around (Cetrotide instead of Buserelin), and I'm two stone lighter than last time, part of me is ...

On pain and suffering and no answers

As we've walked, and continue to trudge through, our IVF journey, I've found myself questioning what I believe. I'm a Christian, most of the time. But questions about unanswered prayers, and where God is amid suffering and grief and pain have ...

Christmas Cycles

So that period I was looking for 25 days ago has finally arrived! Right at exactly the wrong time. This cycle - the one where I took the Clomid (yes, I'm still in that cycle) - took 59 days. Tomorrow, I am ...

False hopes

Today is Cyber Monday. It is also day 35. After taking 200mg Clomid one last time, on the advice of our consultant, this is D-Day. No period by now meant one of two things: pregnant or the drugs didn't work. Sadly it's the ...